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This forwarded quote is so timely to what I’m feeling tonight.

I came from watching a live band presentation in line with the fiesta of our patron, St. John the Baptist. And I’m the different one tonight, far different from who I am and what I really like.

My whole family was there except Keray, a younger sister of mine. She chose to sleep instead of going with us. I thought I will be happy and will be enjoying the occasion without her (my partner when it comes to music), but I DID NOT. Out of the almost 50 songs played by the band, even once, I did not stand and went in the middle to jive with the people and with the band. I was probably the most kj (killjoy) person in that place. Even on my mama and aunties’ invitation to dance, I refused. I just sat in the corner and sadly watched them and the other who are grooving on the floor.

“…because I’m not with the people I used to be with every time there are live bands and discos. I’m referring to my batch mates in Mass Communication.” This is the reason why I was sad that night though I’m in the middle of gaiety and perceiving loud beats.

How I wish my batch mates were there, joining with the shouts of everyone and boogying with the people. How I wish they were there so I won’t be alone. As much as I want to dance, but I don’t feel it, because that was not the group where I find myself enjoying and truly belonging with. That was not the circle of friends who understands me and the way I dance and accepts my addiction to music.

I really love music, but tonight, a gap was created. I hope this only happens tonight for I don’t want to have distance between me and music. I hope this only happens tonight because I and some of my batch mates are already separated …because I miss them already.